Twitter and Vimeo

UGH.  I decided to setup a blog account for the cesspool known as Twitter.  I’ve already had an account up at Vimeo for my music stuff.

We are @r2steve2_blog on twitter.  Follow, retweet, whatever.  I’m not happy about it but hey, it’s another outlet for users.

On Vimeo, go to and follow.  I post new music randomly but check it out.

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Addiction Part II

What makes someone an addict? Is someone who wakes up and requires coffee to un-zombiefie themself an addict to caffeine? I would say yes.  Is someone who requires propylene glycol for constipation an addict? I would say yes.  Is someone who smokes for nicotine an addict? I would say yes.

Is someone an addict if they are required to take medications prescribed to them in pain management that happen to belong to a class of medications known as schedule 1 narcotics?  Yes and No.  Sure, over time your body becomes dependant on the medications required to keep you out of pain but you are addicted to the relief and pain management, not the inside of the pain management envelope.  Everything done to provide relief while in pain management is covered by the envelope of Addiction to Pain Management.

I am on several forms of narcotics.  One being 2x daily percocet 7.5mg/325mg and the other is a 3 day 75mcg/hr Fentanyl patch.  While my system requires these medications to be in them at all times or face withdrawal, I am not addicted to them.  I can easily come off of these medications slowly and properly without issue as I have twice before in my 4 year pain management journey thus far.  The medications in and of themselves are addictive but that doesn’t mean that the person taking them is an addict.  Do you see someone looking to take more per day who runs out during the month go out to score some narcotics on the street or heroin for example? Sure.  Those are addicts.  They have problems with sticking to a regimen.  The regimen keeps me from being an addict.  Instead, I am dependant on a pain management regimen.  The english is different because the forms of addiction are different.

I don’t go out and score narcotics because I take my medications the way I’m supposed to. I am able to function, to work, to be productive and to pay my bills.  While the drugs might be addictive, I can come off of them.  I have no wanting to be on these medications other than they stop my pain, for the most part.

What about Daisy Sue who happens to have an anxiety or depression problem and is on Klonopin or Diazepam?  Why don’t people label people on psych meds addicts?  Benzos are more addictive than narcotics for the most part for the long term and harder to get off of without rebound effects.

What about Marcus B who has chronic plaque Psoriasis? Is he an addict because his Humira is working for him and keeping him plaque free?

When calling someone an addict, take into consideration that there are many forms of addiction.  From caffeine and sugar to food and driving – from narcotics and benzos to meds for constipation or crohns. I mean pick one or pick none.

In terms of me, again: I am dependent on a Pain Management regimen which has been fine tuned over 4 years which includes the usage of Narcotics to ease the disease in my cervical spine.  As I’ve stated I don’t use more than I’m supposed to, I don’t go running out trying to score on the street and I certainly don’t go into my meetings each month acting hurt or with more pain to try and score more meds.  What I have is working and I’m happy and thankful that it is working for me.

So before you go and call someone an addict think to yourself first. Think about your addictions or idio synchronicities that can be considered addictive or addictive behaviours as listed above including those items I didn’t list.  Be mindful that there are people all around you on medications for issues you don’t know anything about because they choose not to share them with you but are struggling.

I am dependant.

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One month since last Occipital Nerve Block and what’s up with Occipital Neuralgia based Cervicogenic Headaches.

Well it’s been quite the month.  Extra problems sleeping, new nerve pain down the leg (sciatic nerve) during sleep BUT NO Cervicogenic Headaches.

This last Occipital Nerve Block last month has lasted this entire 30 days.  Usually it stops around day 15 and I’m then forced to rely on the dosing schedule of Gabapentin.  This one and the placements of the injections have surprisingly kept the ON related CHs away completely and for the full period to my next appointment which is in 4 days.  So technically I’m on day 26.

I’ve been able to cut back on the percocet to 1x a day sometimes but when I have to take 2 its not because of the CHs, it’s other pain in my c-spine.  Tuesday before pain management I’m going for a target specific detailed MRI of T2 through C5.  Due to the major nerve problems they want to look for nerve compressions down this area because we’ve noticed at the chiropractor’s office that certain adjustments are not working anymore, they are merely exacerbating the pain in those discs/nerves.

Hopefully I’ll have an answer soon.  This answer will also be because of an upcoming appointment I have with another neurosurgeon to see if there is anything surgery can do to either the nerve problem(s) or the blown discs/osteoarthritic bone spurs.

Updates to come.

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Insomnia and Ambien Part III


It’s been night 3 of Ambien ER 12.5mg.  All I have to say is wow.  First.  I didn’t get to sleep rather quickly but that’s my own damned fault as I have a terrible habit of watching TV before sleep and There Will Be Blood was recently ripped from my bluray collection onto my Plex server so of course I had to watch it. So that’s 3+ hours after bedtime I was awake.

I felt the ambien trying to put me to bed.  If I closed my eyes I saw stringy objects moving around like jellyfish and colors all fading to black but hey, I wanted to watch TV so I opened up the eyes again.  Once the movie was over I disconnected Plex from my bedroom TV and connected it to my Sony ChromeCast Google Home Speaker and threw on relaxing hypnotic music.  I was out in no time.

I had the most realistic dreams.  Dreams of dreams I’ve had months and years ago. Things that I’ve put into code and hidden it in the dream world only to find it again in the dream world last night.  That was interesting as I have full recall of all of the dreams from last night – and I usually don’t remember dreams at all.

If you were to ask a long time insomniac if Ambien was effective at all, I would say yes, a big yes.  I’m quite happy with what it’s done and will continue to use it as my tool for sleep.


After counting the times I was asleep according to my fitbit, no matter what time I end up going to sleep, I get a solid 8 hours.  If It’s the weekend which it’s been, I fall asleep at 3ish and wake up at 11ish.  Not bad for someone used to sleeping 2-4 hours a night or waking up after one hour of sleep, staying in bed and going into the living room at 4:30am as being up for the night.

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